Disappointment is inevitable. Several months ago I jumped on an emotional roller coaster called, "selling one's home." I haven't fully gotten off that roller coaster, but thought I would write a little blog about what I believe God has shown me through this process. This summer, my husband and I decided to put our house on the market. We wanted a home with an office and an extra bedroom. We were excited to find out, that while vacationing at the beach, after our home's first showing, we got an offer. We thought it was too good to be true. We were so excited. We had heard horror stories about people having to keep their home show ready for months before selling, and because I am not that dedicated to a perfect home, I knew that was going to be a tough task for me. I couldn't have been happier. I could not wait to go out with a realtor to look for our new home. I had my list of non-negotiables, and after a few days looking, I walked into an all brick home, on a culda sac, with a large bonus room in the back of the home. I was sold. We made an offer, they accepted. It was at the top of our price range, but the location was PERFECT, and I really wanted an all brick home on a culda sac. In the weeks following, we found out that our buyers wanted to terminate the offer. I was totally devastated. I had spent those weeks online looking at furniture, and getting all my decorating ideas in line. I had gotten ahead of myself, so when I got the news, I was totally bummed. I knew it was just a house, and I was trying to downplay how sad I actually was. After all, I knew I was lucky to even have the opportunity to be out looking for a new home. I tried to be thankful for the experience, and look at the bright side, but I knew that the house we found was a good one...for the money, location, and for our family.
During that time, I ran across a song that I meditated on daily. It is by one of my favorite gospel singers, Fred Hammond. It's called," I'm in the midst of it all." My favorite lyrics in this song say this:
"I'm in the midst of it all...When your heart is breaking....please don't worry, I'm in the midst of it all."
"Trust in my word, don't let your heart be troubled, I need you to know that I am here."
"To know that your presence is all that I need, is more than enough to set my mind at ease, and when our hearts are overwhelmed, we'll look to the cross, and there we are reminded that you are here."
This song reminded me that God can handle my disappointment. He knows how I feel, and he cares. He knew that wasn't the right home for us. We later found a home that we love more than that one, and it is at the lower end of our budget, which is great, because we underestimated how much it costs to move. We have the freedom to make this home OURS.....but know deep down that it is actually HIS.
I hope that when my kids run across disappointment in their lives, they give it to God. They meditate on His word that says, "cast your cares on the Lord, for he cares for you" (1 Peter 5:7), and Romans 8:28 that says, "and we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." I hope that when their heart feels overwhelmed, they will look to the cross, where God's love and power were perfectly combined to reassure us that he isn't blind to our desires or needs, but that he is indeed, in the midst of it all.
